Saturday, November 17, 2007

95 days without YOU

Before today
I was very confident to YOU
Because YOU gave me the confidence
YOU have never doubted
Because YOU really trust
I never look down on YOU
Because YOU are not like your best friend talking about

But after today
I feel angry
Because YOU hide
I have great change on YOU
Because YOU are the person like your best friend said

All of them are because I found the e-mail that should not be found
These e-mails YOU have been buried in a dark place
But no matter how dark, I still go there and I found it
The answer has been to turn
The answer is very sad

今天以前
对你很有信心
因为你给我信心
对你从来没有怀疑
因为真的很信任你
对你从来没有看不起你
因为你不是朋友所说的

可是今天以后
对你很生气
因为你隐瞒
对你有很大的改观
因为你是朋友所说的

这些全部都是因为我发现了不应该发现的电邮
这些电邮你一直都埋在某个黑暗的地方
可是不管有多黑暗我还是到那里了
也得到某某答案
非常心酸的答案

Monday, October 29, 2007

76 days without YOU

YOU left such a long time, I still think of YOU all the time.
Until now, I still give myself a stupid a tired reason.
Until now I have always told myself
YOU went to a very far very far forestry area to work for many many years.
Until now I have always told myself
the forestry areas have no developed communications network so YOU can‘t contact with me.
So I told myself, I will lose contact with YOU for a very very long time.
Therefore, I will miss YOU very very much, until the day we meet.
‘Until the day we meet' in the end is when?

你也离开这么久了,我依然一直想着你。
到现在我还是给着自己一给很笨很累的理由。
到现在我一直告诉自己
你到了一个很遥远很偏僻的地方工作很多年很多年。
到现在我一直告诉自己
那遥远偏僻的地方有着不发达通讯网络所以你一直联络不上我。
所以我告诉自己将会和你失去联络一段很长很长的时间。
所以我将会很想念很想念你,直到见面的一天。
‘直到见面的一天’到底是何时?

Sunday, October 21, 2007

An Angel

He came
like a knight in shining armour
He brought
not only joy and happiness
but tender, love and care
Like a rainbow after the rain
he is always a delight
He may be gone forever
but his soul
will always live in your heart
Just like an angel
he will always be
by your side

"Originated from http://me-owl.blogspot.com/"

68 days without YOU

I have never think that I will heard this
But I know that at the end
I have been a strong appearance
but I was collapse and lost when I knew it
I am really very sad
All was because of me
Either I
All of the things will never happen

Saturday, October 06, 2007

53 days without YOU

53 days ago, was my birthday was your death
Since that day, I never ever can accept you left me and that was a fact
A very cruel fact

We intended to build up our happy family
But now i have no hope on that
So whenever I saw couples in sweet time
I would certainly think that we should have that sweet time as well
This day will never ever happen to you and me

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

49 days without YOU

To your 'new home' trip
You and your mother just 'living' opposite
Nice and beautiful environment
Is you to help your mother chosen the 'home'
Know you like environment very much and that’s why you chosen there

Your 'bed' is I chosen for you
I hope you will like and live in happy

All are past
Since you left, I did not dream of you
Your teacher said this is good because you went to the beautiful and peaceful paradise

I just hope you can bless your sister help you get justice

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Dear So GG

Dear So GG,

Saw YOU again...
Heard YOU again...
in the video
Miss YOU a lot

From So Por

Thursday, September 13, 2007

YOU seem far away..YOU seem next to me..

YOU away from me and from us almost a month
YOU seem far far away from me
YOU never let me dream of YOU
YOU never let me feel of YOU
YOU never let me seen of YOU

They said
I never dream of YOU
I nerver feel of YOU
I never seen of YOU
All is because YOU are the angel of mine
Always staying at my side
Always look after me
That's why
YOU never let me dream of YOU
YOU never let me feel of YOU
YOU never let me seen of YOU

Monday, September 03, 2007

MY love will get YOU home

My love will get you home
by Christine Glass
If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever feel ashame, my love will get you home.
If its only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

Friday, August 24, 2007

To Mandy

A letter to her not to me
I help you to post it on this page now
I know you will angry about but i really want she know about this
This letter wrote on 29/06/2004 0300hrs
A voice from your deep heart
Anywhere, I hope she can read it and know about your feeling to her

From the truely eyes of me...
You will never age for me,
You will never fade for me,
You will never die for me...

Let's my hand hold your heart...
Bring you Joy...
Bring you Love...
Bring you Life...

Let's my heart enthral you follow the rest of you life...

Miss you so much...

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Last time and now

Last time, this blog is all about you
Yourself, your life, your mother, your happiness, your sadness, your lifestyle etc etc...
And you wrote for it.

Now, this blog is all about you too
My feeling to you, life without you, my sadness when you not around my side etc etc...
And i write for it.

by Yuki

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Re: The day i always remember you...

Today,
To my beloved dearest mother…

You are always in my heart with your blessing and caring,
Without you, I will never able to walk alone over all this moment…
Without you, I will never come to this so far…

Love and miss you forever.

Friday, April 20, 2007

Re : Exhausted

Lately, feel exhausted with my work.

Running here and there.. Project work and school training one after another…
Just make myself almost cannot take my breath easily…

Feel very tired after long day training in school, feel very empty after everyday need to come back to HQ for paper work even after working hour…

Have a lots paper work and follow up need to be done… stacking one another in front of myself. Some time.. I just don’t know how to settle all those work in my mind.

The team is expanded very big… more school training and project come once with another. From logistic planning, follow up with all those problem, project work come in at the same time… really just kill me.

Working in the team is very harmony, each team member really help each others. We do have lots of fun and great moment to bond together. Just only too many works come in at the same time… just make every one exhaust from the daily work.

I do training up some of the people in the team to follow and help the team move forward. But.. poor things is all those people also like become another “astley” who work in HQ and I don’t wish to see them like that and follow my foot step when work in the company.

I do admit I help out the team a lots specially block all those nonsense bullet.. some how, I think that’s is the only things i can help for the team. I am has been try as hard as I can to “protect” them, I wish my team were happy to work in the company.

I am remember one of the team member told me before… “Astley, do you feel pathetic?”

Pathetic?...

Yes.. I do..

I do feel pathetic for myself when I am very tired with my life for almost about one and a half year to do so…

Some time I just feel myself I do not have a space to let me speak out…
Even I am say out loud, who is the person beside me and understand what I mention about?

Every single word, when reach over to my mouth, when I am wish to say it out… I am just push it back in to my stomach…
I am just realizing no one just beside me…

Every week, I am just push myself move forward to meet her even i am feel tired or even only have less then 48 hours to be with her… myself really cannot feel my heart wish to do so… I am just wear out completely.

Like wise, every day when I am tired after my work… just wish to hold some one hand, have a nice chat, and talk about the day… I just cannot found or feel any one beside me.

Even I am wish some one who can give me a simple hand rub after my long day work… I just cannot found or feel any one beside me.

I am almost lost all my motivation in this stage. That is why I am say myself is so pathetic.

I do ask myself.. What I am looking for.. ?
Now.. I really have no idea what I need…

I don’t know how long I can hold on..
I don’t know how much time will take and wear me off…
I am just only can sit here and wait for the time to come…

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Re: Picasso - Part 01

When I was young, had been inspired by most of the “Artistic Painter” like…

Leonardo da Vinci (1452 ~ 1519)
Pablo Picasso (1881 ~ 1973)
Vincent Willem van Gogh (1853 ~1890 )
Gustav Klimt (1862 ~ 1918)
Willem de Kooning (1904 ~ 1997)

During that time, I just wonder why all those Master had so demiurgic mind set to draw and paint with their art work.

My favorite Master Artist Painter is Pablo Picasso (1881 ~ 1973), who is one of the most recognized artist in 20th century art.


Pablo Picasso (1881 ~ 1973)

Picasso was born in Málaga, Spain in 1881, he was a Spanish painter and sculptor.

In the age of 9, Picasso has train by his father José Ruiz y Blasco (1838-1913) who also was a Spanish painter and art teacher.

Picasso also attended carpenter schools throughout his childhood but he never finished his college-level course of study at the Academy of Arts (Academia de San Fernando) in Madrid.


The most funny part for this Master Artist is… His full name is Pablo Diego José Francisco de Paula Juan Nepomuceno María de los Remedios Cipriano de la Santísima Trinidad Clito Ruiz y Picasso.

Picasso artwork is often categorized into "periods". While the names of many of his later periods are debated, the most commonly accepted periods in his work are…

Blue Period (1901–1904)
Rose Period (1905–1907)
African-influenced Period (1908–1909)
Analytic Cubism (1909–1912)
Synthetic Cubism (1912–1919).

Here is his some of the artwork...


The Old Guitarist (Year 1903)
Blue Period (1901–1904)


Les_Demoiselles_d'Avignon(Year 1907)
Rose Period (1905–1907)


Garçon à la pipe (Year 1905)
Rose Period (1905–1907)

This is Picasso highest selling painting. Calling prices tag at USD$111.2 millions.

Picasso's highest selling painting, Garçon à la pipe (Boy with a pipe) was painted during this Rose Period.

The Rose Period signifies the time when the style of Pablo Picasso's painting used cheerful orange and pink colours in contrast to the cool, sombre tones of the previous Blue Period. It lasted from 1905 to 1907. He was happy in his relationship with Fernande Olivier whom he had met in 1904 and this has been suggested as one of the possible reasons he changed his style of painting.

Lately, I was using Picasso unique painting style to teach all my primary school students in their Digital Art courses in infocomm club multimedia training.

Their just using Adobe Photoshop build in plug in (filters) like Liquify, Artistic Cutout, Fresco, Palette Knife, Dry Brush can do the job very well.

Some how, all my kids love to play the Liquify effects when they learn the photoshop skill set. I am also creating small project work for them like create “Picasso-look-a-like” master artwork. I am name the project work as “Picasso Jr.”

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Re: 愛錯

愛錯 - 李心潔

當雨滴落在窗口 等你一起過來
你低頭不語 我不想現在面對
我們選擇愛情 還是愛情選擇我們
當時愛的勇氣 都跑到那裡去

還記得你要帶我去的天堂
如今只剩下天邊一絲彩霞
日落的這一刻 我的心沒太陽

還有什麼理由 還有什麼結果
要我否認你的錯
輸了你的承諾 輸了你的曾經
說過要一直愛我

還有什麼理由
輸了你的承諾 輸了你的曾經
過要一直愛我

p/s: To remember 30/03... 4th years anniversary.
I devote wholly and earnestly for the pass in my life.

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Re: 雨



风... 吹过大地
带走忙碌的一天

谁... 背上行囊
独自走的一段路程

雨... 打在手上
一路飘摇和苦涩

我... 转过街口
伸手触摸远处的风尘

here is japanese version....

風... 大地に吹きます
忙しい一日を持って

誰... 旅行用の袋を背負い
独りで歩く 道のり

雨... 手中にあること上で打ちます
いっしょに翻るのがと苦くて渋いです

私... 道の入口を回転したこと
手を伸ばして 遠いの風と塵に触れます

p/s: Thanks Jane help me take this picture !

Monday, March 12, 2007

Re: 从前,现在和将来.

从前…因为我的无知, 做了不该的事情…
因为这样… 我从中自我学习…

现在…因为我的了解, 回想过去的点滴…
因为这样… 我要自己从不重复以前的步伐…

将来…因为我的明白, 知道我要的东西
因为这样…我从不后悔的信任妳给我的一切…

因为我知道… 我一直都做到…
从前,现在和将来.

Re: "那是你, 不是我"...

为什麽永远都把以前的东西拿来做比较?

和我在一起那麽久... 妳感觉不到我对妳的爱吗?

当妳说"那是你, 不是我"...
妳有想一想我的感受吗?

妳说妳很难受和害怕那种感受...
我比妳更不好受...

Saturday, March 03, 2007

Re: 放下

很多事情, 我不问… 不代表我不知道.
很多事情, 我不说… 不代表我不在意.

我只是不想说吧了…

如果我问… 代表妳还隐瞒着我.
如果我说… 代表妳心还没放下.

为何要我问? 我问了… 妳会回答吗?
为何要我说? 我说了… 妳会承认吗?

我给妳空间, 我是不想让我自己没有呼吸的地方.
我给妳信任, 我是不想让我自己有怀疑妳的机会.

妳说过妳会"放下"… 但妳常常和他接触…
妳会放得下吗?

当我知道妳还和他接触… 妳知道我会多在意吗?

对不起… 我不小心知道昨晚妳又和他通过电话…
我真的不是有意的.

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Re: 傾聽

看着蓝色的天空, 心里想着是悲伤还是快乐呢?
风中吹着妳的味道, 那妳又在那里呢?

夜里闭着我眼睛, 用心去感受和妳在梦中相约…
看到妳熟睡的样子, 那妳又梦见谁呢?

我心里的话… 妳又听见吗?

我每次閉上眼睛去探尋,可能会發生的事情…
是因为我不想要太多不必要的打擾和原因.

我專心傾聽… 妳心裡面的呼吸
我專心傾聽… 妳生命裡的聲音

我梦里的心… 妳又看见吗?

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Re: Fever

This few days...
Have an abnormally high body temperature.
Feel very very tired.

Outside...
Rain have fall from heaven more then few days.
Just make me not feeling well...

Every time after the training session in school
Don't wish to going back to office...
The air condition in office just like freezer
Just... too cold.

Might cought cold from that moment...
And just make me not feeling for this few days.
Anyway...
Now i have some reason to get myself rest for few days.

Friday, January 05, 2007

Re: 風になる

風になる

忘れていた目を閉じて 取り戻せ恋のうた
青空に隠れている 手を伸ばしてもう一度

忘れないですぐそばに 僕がいるいつの日も
星空を眺めている 一人きりの夜明けも

たった一つの心 悲しみに暮れないで
君のためいきなんて 春風に変えてやる

陽のあたる坂道を 自転車で駆けのぼる
君と失くした想い出乗せて行くよ
ララララ 口ずさむ くちびるを染めて行く
君と見つけたしあわせ花のように

忘れていた窓開けて 走り出せ恋のうた
青空に託している 手をかざしてもう一度

忘れないよすぐそばに 君がいるいつの日も
星空に輝いてる 涙揺れる明日も

たった一つの言葉 この胸に抱きしめて
君のため僕は今 春風に吹かれてる

陽のあたる坂道を 自転車で駆けのぼる
君と誓った約束乗せて行くよ
ララララ 口ずさむ くちびるを染めて行く
君と出会えたしあわせ祈るように

君と出会えたしあわせ祈るように

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Re: Wishes vs Expectation.

New Year, New Day…
New resolution for the up coming year.

Lots of people already have some new plan and resolution in New Year.
Wishing themselves doing much better and doing well in they way.

What is your New Year resolution?

I get myself a piece of paper…
Write down all my wishes and resolution for someone…
Wishing hard for up coming year…
Will doing well and better for us.

I told myself I will try as hard as I can…
Make all those wishes to come true…
Just for my expectation for someone.
That is my New Year resolution…

Some how…
Do you expect what you will get in the end of the time?

What you wish for… may not is your expectation.

Always… Manage your expectation before you make any wishes.
It will better to be that way.

Monday, January 01, 2007

Re: 菊花台

妳 的淚光 柔弱中帶傷
慘白的月彎彎 勾住過往

夜 太漫長 凝結成了霜
是誰在閣樓上 冰冷的絕望

雨 輕輕彈 朱紅色的窗
我一生在紙上 被風吹亂

夢 在遠方 化成一縷香
隨風飄散 妳的模樣

菊花殘 滿地傷 妳的笑容已泛黃
花落人斷腸 我心事靜靜躺

北風亂 夜未央 妳的影子剪不斷
徒留我孤單 在湖面成雙

花 已向晚 飄落了燦爛
凋謝的世道上 命運不堪

愁 莫渡江 秋心拆兩半
怕妳上不了岸 一輩子搖晃

誰 的江山 馬蹄聲狂亂
我一身的戎裝 呼嘯滄桑

天 微微亮 妳輕聲的嘆
一夜惆悵 如此委婉